living in this world for all your life.
be it 10 years, 20 years, 40 years or even 100 years.
ever think that you have not let yourself down,
and complete smth that worth others applause.
smth that worth you thinking that you've not waste your whole life living on this earth.
smth that worth you thinking that it is a wise decision that your parents brought you into this beautiful world.
smth that worth you thinking that, "WOW, I'VE ACHIEVED SMTH GOOD ON MY OWN!"
smth that worth you thinking that you aint a burden to people around you.
smth that worth you thinking that you did not let your loves ones down afterall.
smth that worth you thinking that you are not a parasite at all.
smth that worth you thinking that your parents did not waste their life, precious time, care, concern and money to bring you up.
have you?
sadly to say, i dont.

all my life,
i have not done a single matter that worth me thinking that i've achieved smth REAL impressive,
REAL GREAT ALL BY MYSELF.
im a failure in life.
failure in everything that im doing.
a true failure to my studies, attachment, character, family, friends, driving, life, attitude and the list goes on...

i have been thinking hard for the whole day.
have i ever achieved smth that makes the people i love, to be proud of me?
no, i didnt. i didnt do a single shit to make them feel proud, no i didnt.

HEY MICHELLE AW, YOU REALLY SUCK AND DO YOU KNOW THAT?
yes i know.


yet another doom week coming up.
17 days seemed extremely tough for me to carry on.....
see? this is what i meant by a failure for life.

[ Thursday, April 24, 2008 : 9:01 PM ]