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goodbye!

2009-01-05T22:35:00.001+08:00

GOODBYE!

monday wala :)

2008-12-19T23:58:00.010+08:00

hello! i jus came home from ngee ann polytechnic :)
went to watch the joint effort of ngee ann NRA club and other different secondarys, polys and universities "DANZATION" performance!
IT WAS ASWESOME! :D
hannah was soooooooo damn sexy and sizzling hot.
she really could dance and shake her body man! ;)

as i was saying in the previous post, i would post on monday wala night.
it was kinda special as its my first time visiting wala on a MONDAY :)
the crowd wasnt as much compared to friday and saturday, but nevertheless we had fun!
sara was the lead singer for monday nights.

a little information about sara...
1) she has a good and strong vocal that im DYING to have.
2) she is only 22 years old this year.
3) she's from my primary school (Peichun Public School)
4) she's my brother primary school classmate LOL.

well, it sort of turned out to be a "gathering" for long-time-no-see friends LOL.
it was first childhood friends and followed by PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIENDS haha!

edmund and me :D

the ladies(:

KUANWEI AND EDMUND LOL.

hanwei and friends.

novia and hanwei

the siblings. yes, do not doubt. they're really siblings!

smth in common. SINGLE EYELIDS :s

childhood friends :)

the macho and palm reading master haha!

mich and pretty novia(:

this blog will be offically closed by year 2009.
come ask the new url from me if you wanna know :)
i'll consider if i wanna reveal it to you haha!
NOT FUNNY.

random,

BUT PROJECTS SUCK BIG TIME!

Wedding makes people feel happy :D

2008-12-16T17:05:00.018+08:00

hello everybody! im back(:
suddenly got the urge to update haha.
well, have attended my cousin, danny's wedding on the 12/12/08 :D
i never fail to feeeel the love and happiness whenever i attend weddings.
it makes me feel so happy for the couples!
especially the slides show on how they met and all.
haha, and also not forgetting the "YUMMMMMM SENG!" and the yummmmy fooood!
dinner was at carlton hotel, ambience was not bad (:

on the way to carlton's :)

gorgeous hair isnt it!

haha, CHIOBU NEHXZXZXZ LOL!

mich, novia, kiko and bernard :)

mommy love!

family in BLACK haha.

with danny the bridegroom.

novia and mommy (:

haha they looked as if they were the limelight couple!

the 欧s HAHA. with dahao and dazhi :) a pity leslie wasnt here!

mommy and ah sim.

the brothers! they look kinda alike dont they! HAHA.

THE BRIDE AND THE BRIDEGROOM :D

and we "throw" the flowers right onto his face haah!

dad's starting his "theory" once again haha.

the focus was on my dad. that night, the way he yum seng was really hilarious!

giving their speech.

novia and kiko. and you will realize the past few photos she hasnt been smiling widely and thats becos she wore braces! HAHA.

twinies :)

beautiful gown :D

look how happy the daddies were! HAHA.

so cute isnt she!

baby kyon! :D she looked ang mo!

pretty and gorgeous twin :)

my hair! :D i like it(:

and finally, thats me!

next update would be on wala wala; sara the lead singer (if im not lazy!)
stay tune, combination was kinda surprising but nevertheless it was F-U-N! :D

simple things make people happy :)

2008-10-05T01:45:00.011+08:00

WOOHOOO :) LOL. excited to see me updating?? HAHA.
been ages since i last updated.
i really thought of deleting this blog!!!
but then again, im procrastinating things.
SO MISSION FAILED :s

okay back from europe and there's sooooooo many pictures to share with you people :)
BUT, not updating things at europe first!
gonna update some stuffs that happened these days.

reminiscing the childhood is a great time to catch up with old pals actually.
been meeting up with yanling (my childhood friend) often recently.
the old yanling and the present yanling, is so much of a difference.
i could hardly believed she's the small girl that i used to know when i was young.

im glad things turned out good :)
went out with yanling together novia,
and you can imagine 3 girls chirping all the way and laughing out loud like nobody's business!

dinner at bishan S11 as yanling finished tuition-ing her tuition kid nearby.

well, i dontknow why both of them look so good and pretty.
HAHA IM JUS JEALOUS!!!! :p

yes i know we are of a drastic difference.
me with small eyes and cui hair, she with short and cool hair with BIG eyes!

2nd meeting at nihon mura for dinner at revenue house :)

cotton-on big sale and we decided to have a look.
and ended up playing with the shades while waiting for yanling to arrive.

and that vain girl started camwhoring!
yanling says she got the "do you want to know me" face LOL.
super funny!

and this heart-shaped shades are our all-time favourite LOL.

visited donut factory before dinner.

stay tune for more updates :)

we shouldnt waste time on things/people that make us do not feel like our true self.

stagnant.

2008-08-30T10:43:00.002+08:00

TIME TO DELETE THIS BLOG!!

updates.

2008-08-04T22:16:00.001+08:00

don't be stupid (you know i love you)

hi all, havent been updating.
well i shall let the pictures do the talking okay.

#1 DINNER WITH SECONDARY SCHOOL PALS

#2 DINNER WITH POLYMATES

#3 KBOX

is there anyone even more stupid than me?
walao ehhhhhh, michelle aw.
you're damn dumb lah.
stupid stupid stupid.
you could have jus said OKAY.
you're the dumbest person on earth seriously!

colbie caillat - realize

2008-07-27T23:11:00.010+08:00

[Verse 1:]
Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
You know it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

[Chorus:]
If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

[Verse 2:]
Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

[Refrain:]
But I can't spell it out for you,
You know it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

[Chorus:]
If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other but.

[Verse 3:]
It's not all the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

[Chorus:]
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'd never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realize what I just realized
If you just realize what I just realized

OoOoOOo

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

Realize, realize
Realize, realize

im a qualified driver now :)

2008-07-23T18:47:00.007+08:00

NOTHING can describe the joy im feeling now!

its like ohmygosh, total happiness that i finally did smth with my own strength :D

YAYYYYYY, I PASSED MY TP(:

was really glad when the tester said, "im passing you."

i couldnt believe my ears!

he still said overall im a good driver! (well, maybe to make my happy HAHA)

im sooooooooooooooo happy, totally unbelievable!

im thankful for my family's full support :)

no matter how sucky i am with things, they always believed in me.

and of cos not forgetting the friends as well (:

yay, finally one "burden" is off.

i need not worry about driving lessons and circuits anymore.

not anymore! :D

hop on guys becos im a qualified driver now :):):)

I WANT TO LIVE MY OWN LIFE.

2008-07-08T22:35:00.009+08:00

I FEEL AS IF IM BEING USED.
NOW I'VE BECAME YOUR "USING TOOL".
HOW COOL CAN THIS GET?
TOTAL COOLNESS HUH.

SO IM JUST A "RANDOM FRIEND".
THEREFORE, DONT BOTHER TO SAY/CALL MY NAME OKAY.
PLEASE DO NOT EVEN BOTHER TO SAY A WORD TO ME.

WHY DO I HAVE TO ALWAYS KEEP ALL THESE SHIT INSIDE ME,
AND THEN BE AN IRRITATING SHIT GOING OH-SO-EMO-ISH.
I HATE THIS WEAKLING SIDE OF ME.
SCREW YOU LAH MICHELLE AW.
F*** THAT "NOTHING IS GOING ON" FACE OF YOURS CAN.
BLOODY HELL SHIT.

i will be fine! :D

2008-07-02T09:01:00.004+08:00

i'll be strong!
nothing can bring me down.
the world doesnt stop revolving jus becos im feeling down.

hey mich!
cheeries :)
you can do it dudette, you can!
show others that you can be independent.
show others what you're capable of (:
c'mon mich! YOU CAN DO IT :D:D:D

I LOVE YOU MICH!
YOU'VE BEEN DOING GREAT, YES YOU DO :)

if its meant to be yours, it will be eventually.

2008-06-26T00:02:00.007+08:00

everything has been too draggy and stagnant.
i am tired now.

i would not smile for the sake of smiling.
i would not laugh for the sake of laughing.

screw the life.
jus screw it man.

everything jus involved "you all".
everything jus involved "cos he/she asked".
i seriously had enough being THAT obvious now.

why make myself miserable?
why make my life difficult?
i need to quit giving a damn big deal bout it,
i need to stop.

and yes,
if its meant to be yours,
no matter what happens,
it will eventually still be yours in the end.

more pictures to be uploaded,
goodbye.

update update!

2008-06-06T22:26:00.024+08:00

hello everyone!
been sooooo long since i typed smth hereeeee.
im being REALLY lazy to update on my stay at beijing!
so now, maybe jus a brief summary with pictures about my stay in beijing :)

hostel :)

canteen!

kiddos.

forbidden city.

EI GIRLS POWER.

the "royal" family!

emperor yu xiang

nonsense by me and zhuang again.

focus on vane's leg!

cheap good food! total 12plus sing dollars for the 4 of us!

lab!

vane so cute. piggy!

her hair is emo-ing haha!

their messy room!

beijing zoo entrance!

panda so cute.

random. the boy is so cute!

xui shui jie!

kenny rogers :)

the guys.

kelly's dinner! how healthy can she gets man haha.

roses taught by jiayang, TOP! hahaha.

sweet couple, kellen and hendry plus jiayang.

doesnt look appealing but it tastes great!

lunchy with instant noodles!

dominic! leader :)

shaker group!

drums group!

dance group!

gross handssssss.

birthday surprise for kelly and june babies!

happy birthday, kel :)

and zhuang was asked to give her first cake to the "important" opposite gender.

wanted to give justin but he purposely didnt want to help so kind yu xiang helped her.

and ms ang was one of the june babies as well.

BiTC batch 6 guys :)

BiTC batch 6 girls :)

roommates.

attachment mates.

my crappy partner.

jocelyn! cute girl.

hmmmm, weird combi but nvm haha. boren and cham!

:D vane.

fake birthday girl and happy passer-by (:

and we started playing with the party hat.

all thanks to liu wenzhuang.

stay tune for more updates :)
toodos!

lets all say, "WALA-WALA~"

2008-05-11T15:11:00.004+08:00

WALA-WALA! :)

HELL LOT OF FUN.

I CAN ASSURE THAT YOU WONT REGRET

GOING THERE!

thats all for now,
report time!

EVERY MAMAS ON EARTH, HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY! :)
i love you, mommmmmmmy <3

and yet so little time.

2008-05-07T19:06:00.007+08:00

LONG TIME NO SEE.

attachment's ending in 8 working days' time,
and i cant wait~
but report is killing me.
never ever be like me: LAST MINUTE WORK.
cos you'll get hell from it ):

beijing trip's coming in 16 normal days' time,
and i cant wait toooo~
but packing of one month's clothes is killing me too too.
i havent even touch a single thing yet!
no luggage, no planning, no time, no nothing!

driving test's coming in *A SECRET*
and i cant wait FOR IT TO BE OVER!
hopefully i get what i've worked hard for these passing 5months.
i know sometimes you do not get the end result that you've always wanted,
but im being positive to it.
my faith, my trust, my decision, my everything.
so let's jus hope everything turns out fine. :)

GOGO JIAYOU, MICH!

YOU CAN DO IT :D

a pass/fail determines my final decision.
one month away might be a new start and new beginning, so why not?

thanks for being there, see yiqian.

2008-05-02T11:54:00.007+08:00

★★★ says (11:47 AM):
:S
i saw your pm
i thought you emo again
michelle. says (11:47 AM):
huh?
★★★ says (11:47 AM):
because my window, i didnt maximise
so i can only see the
i really love you very much,...
★★★ says (11:48 AM):
like that
then ithought behind its those
but you are hurting me too much, baby
:S
michelle. says (11:48 AM):
PLEASE LAH
★★★ says (11:48 AM):
lol
michelle. says (11:49 AM):
THIS IS NOT EVEN MY STYLE PLEASE
★★★ says (11:49 AM):
lol
:S
okay sorry
its shanggeok and my style
michelle. says (11:49 AM):
WHEN YOU SEE ME WRITE THESE KINDA THINGS ONE.
YES YOU'RE RIGHT.
so funny!
★★★ says (11:49 AM):
LOL
i write now loh

(and there she goes writing some funny pm already.)

thanks for being there, see yiqian.
i wouldnt know what'll happen to me without you.
thanks for your listening ears/eyes.
thanks for your advices and thoughts.
thanks for your lame jokes.
thanks for everything you have done!
i jus feel like giving you a big hug now, but you're in taiwan ):
really thanks! i really love you very much, see yiqian.

oh man, and my eyes are hurting now :s

top 10 pics.

2008-04-30T22:16:00.008+08:00

and last but not least, the "master" behind all these workpieces.....
drums rolling*
"BEST FRIEND", HO KANGWEI! HAHA.
he looked kinda blur and fat though :s

haha jus a random post today.
cos kangwei was asking me to choose the top 10 pics that i think are the nicest.
and i include him haha!
well that was becos the model he found was kinda.... unnatural?
haha i dontknow.
okay and end of post!
see you guys around, tata!

for all my life.....

2008-04-24T21:01:00.006+08:00

living in this world for all your life.
be it 10 years, 20 years, 40 years or even 100 years.
ever think that you have not let yourself down,
and complete smth that worth others applause.
smth that worth you thinking that you've not waste your whole life living on this earth.
smth that worth you thinking that it is a wise decision that your parents brought you into this beautiful world.
smth that worth you thinking that, "WOW, I'VE ACHIEVED SMTH GOOD ON MY OWN!"
smth that worth you thinking that you aint a burden to people around you.
smth that worth you thinking that you did not let your loves ones down afterall.
smth that worth you thinking that you are not a parasite at all.
smth that worth you thinking that your parents did not waste their life, precious time, care, concern and money to bring you up.
have you?
sadly to say, i dont.

all my life,
i have not done a single matter that worth me thinking that i've achieved smth REAL impressive,
REAL GREAT ALL BY MYSELF.
im a failure in life.
failure in everything that im doing.
a true failure to my studies, attachment, character, family, friends, driving, life, attitude and the list goes on...

i have been thinking hard for the whole day.
have i ever achieved smth that makes the people i love, to be proud of me?
no, i didnt. i didnt do a single shit to make them feel proud, no i didnt.

HEY MICHELLE AW, YOU REALLY SUCK AND DO YOU KNOW THAT?
yes i know.

yet another doom week coming up.
17 days seemed extremely tough for me to carry on.....
see? this is what i meant by a failure for life.

yet another emo song.

2008-04-21T23:31:00.008+08:00

So many times I was alone I couldn't sleep
You left me drowning in the tears of memory
And ever since you've gone, I found it hard to breathe
Cause there was so much that your heart just couldn't see
A thousand wasted dreams rolling off my eyes
But time's been healing me and I say goodbye

Cause I can breathe again, dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now I feel free again, so innocent
Cause someone makes me whole again for sure
I'll find another you

Could you imagine someone else is by my side
I've been afraid he couldn't keep myself from falling
My heart was always searching for a place to hide
Could not await the dawn to bring another day
Your not the only one so hear me when I say
The thoughts of you, they just fade away

Cause I can breathe again, dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now I feel free again, so innocent
Cause someone makes me whole again for sure
I'll find another you

Sometimes I see you when I close my eyes
You're still apart of my life

But I can breathe again, dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now I feel free again, so innocent
Cause someone makes me whole again for sure
I'll find another you
I'll find another you

jus what the hell is wrong with me?
everything jus isnt right.
everything jus felt so wrong.
i've tried not to be so obvious,
i've tried lying over and over again,
i've tried everything i could.
i've really tried hard, VERY hard...
but i jus dont feel any happier ):

i love my family!

2008-04-20T20:31:00.005+08:00

hello! i jus came back home :)
its been a long day out with my siblings!
dad went to work and mom went to play mahjong :p
therefore the 3 of us decide to go shopping today!
shopping with siblings are fun.
i should say shopping with MY BROTHER is fun,
cos you get to eat good food without paying!
HAHA CHEAPO I KNOW :p

got pester by leslie and novia early in the morning at around 11plus.
er, not very early actually :s
i wanted to sleep more but they refused to let me! :(
so as usual, leslie came out with weird ideas to wake me up.
like using his SUPER BIG pillow that he jus bought from spotlight,
and stuff it right into my face :/
plus taking a lighter and "threatens" to burn my pillow into ashes if i still refused to wake up :s
my sister is also a disturbant as well!
using some unknown object and kept tickling my foot!
these showed how CHILDISH my siblings can be.
BUT NEVERTHELESS, I STILL LOVE THEM AS MUCH :D:D:D

took a cab down to plaza singapura at around 12plus.
leslie doesnt want to take a bus becos he says he feels really hot due to the weather :s
went to samsung to collect his phone but so sad, it isnt done from repairing yet.
so, decided to go for lunch at ding tai fung! :)
its leslie's treat :D how nice of him!

after lunch, we took mrt to wisma! HAHA.
from plaza sing to wisma.
well, now you can see how lazy leslie is :s
he's so much lazier than me okay!
so you guys cant blame me for being lazy yah.

went topshop and he bought a shirt and SUPER-MAN singlet haha!
hmm and i realised, loads of gays like to buy their clothings from topshop.
im not trying to be mean or what lah, but yah jus a random thought.
and leslie bought 3 singlets and 2 berms from cotton-on as well.
walked around taka and decided to go for a movie! LOL.
well, kinda random too cos was really tired already.
watched "the forbidden kingdom" at the cathay!
the movie was alright.
out of 5 popcorns, i'll give it 3! HAHA.

oh yes and my programmes for past few days have been quite active,
that i didnt managed to do my report this weekend again :s
i feel so guilty can! HAHA.
went johor with my family yesterday and dinner plus pub the day before! :s
OH YES, i went to a pub that my parents always frequent on friday LOL.
it was a pub at bukit timah called MY WIFE'S PLACE.
LOL, i dontknow why the 4 of them jus suddenly had to the urge to go to a pub.
dad was still thinking of going st. james! :s
and then novia and mommy were saying to go wala but then happy hour's over,
so we decide on my wife's place haha!
that pub is super funny one, they still provide free porridge!
and the porridge is YUMMY :)
hmmm, maybe that pub is for MUCH ELDER PEOPLE thats why LOL.

enjoyed these few days with my family and i jus wanna say i love them very very very much!
i cant imagine life without them and i dont wanna imagine toooooo.
LOVES <3
okay off to bathe now bye! :)

everything will be under my control

2008-04-13T18:19:00.005+08:00

so, on a happier note....
i hanged out with my secondary school friends again! :)

and guess where we went?
HAHA BISHAN :s
well, jus a dinner and movie therefore we decide on somewhere nearer.

dinner at s11 with yiwen, vane, edmund, chin teck, kang wei and justin!
ate zhi char and headed for my favourite PAO PAO CHA :D
after which, we went to arcade :)
oh yessssss and im kinda addicted to playing arcade games :s
its super duper fun!
but also an expensive past-time :s

caught "rouge crocodile" at the 9.40pm time slot.
HAHA IM SORRY EVERYONE, MY FAULT :s
i insisted on watching rouge crocodile and everyone gave in to me haha.
its kind of a mono movie.
one of the most boring thriller i've ever watched.
so, DO NOT watch it okay!
not worth your money especially on a weekend :s

sorry guys, i promise it'll be a better movie the next time.
HMM MAYBE PROM NIGHT OR IRONMAN? :p

everything will be under my control..... yes it will :)
jus stay happy, mich!
oh yah and everyone is getting themselves a bf already!
OHMYGOSH, i still cant get over the fact that.............. and ................ has a bf already HAHA.

三生有幸

2008-04-10T22:30:00.026+08:00

this song has been stucked inside my head since yesterday.
a very sweet love song that can totally melts your heart like anything,
but at the same time it makes you feel like crying out loudly when you're feeling real down...

i really do not know what should i do now.
i seriously think oscar award goes to me for sure.
hiding emotions has been one of my greatest talent now.
i cant take this anymore, i jus wanna run away from everything.
best solution is probably to distant myself away from.....
i seriously think i should distant myself!
but my heart jus doesnt allow me to do so! ):
im no saint, i feel so much like a devil.
im a sinner and that makes me the WORST PERSON ON EARTH!
MICHELLE AW, I HATE YOU. I REALLY DO!

what we do when ipp gets bored

2008-04-08T10:47:00.004+08:00

this is what me and vane do when we get bored in the office!

will update more on last saturday's fourlove bbq soon :)
stay tune!

pictures of saturday meetup!

2008-04-03T19:14:00.000+08:00

HELLO! HAHA.
im still in the office right now haha!
waiting for miss wee peiyun to reach bishan haha.
meanwhile, please let me update some pictures that i koped from caryn's blog :p

vane looks like she's drunk! super funny.

er haha. i looked like a ghost, a fat one :s

this auntie is trying to be lame by using her tongue to tie the cherry stalk.

the DARLINGS haha!

playing around with wz's instant cam! :)

she's so child like! in other word, childish!!! LOL.

oh well, im trying to be spastic again so yah.

trying to act like some passerby posing behind! FUNNY.

end of post!
vanessa's coming, bye! :)

what about love?

2008-04-01T13:21:00.006+08:00

What if I took my time to love you?
What if I put no one above you?
What if I did the things
That really mattered?
What if I ran throughHoops of disaster?

No one would care if
We never made it
We're in this alone
So why don't we face it
There is no room to
Blame one another
We just need time to
Forgive each other

[Chorus:]
What about love?
What about feeling?
What about all the things that make life worth living?
What about faith?
What about trust?
And tell me baby...what about us?

How can I give this
Love a new beginning?
How can I stop the rain?
It's never ending
How do I keep my soul believing?
Memories of how we
Should be keep calling

[Chorus]

I'll take the rivers rise
I'll take the happy times
I'll take the moments of disaster

[Chorus]

im jus so in love with a black's voice :s

pictures time!

2008-03-29T23:15:00.009+08:00

hey guys!
been out with my poly clique today(: - caryn, vane and wenzhuang.
its a pity that kelly couldnt make it.
i think i do not have much fate with kelly haha.
went bodyshop sales, kbox and watched shutter!
it was fun hanging out with girlfriends :D
after everything, went to met novia and geok at suntec convention hall.
they're doing some roadshow there and it so happened that im at marina square too.

pictures of both secondary school meetups.
fish n co and chienting's farewell dinner(:

#1: fish n co (140308)
group photos! :D

#2: chienting's farewell dinner (240308)

typical michelle aw.

yiwen and chien(:

chien and jus(:

chien and yours truly!

wee peiyun vanessa! :D

justin the man of the day!

look carefully! its dbsk on both our phones :D

the "suddenly-everyone-jus-pop-their-heads-in" picture HAHA.

tadah! this mercedes benz brought me home safely that day ha!

okay, and next saturday would be a mini ex-fourlove bbq at my house!
everyone that has confirmed with me that they're going,
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DONT GIVE ME HEART ATTACKS AT THE VERY LAST MINUTE!
cant wait for the bbq :D
let's hope everyone'll co-operate to make this bbq a success one okay! :)

gtg and bathe now, toodos!

he's the man! :)

2008-03-25T09:22:00.006+08:00

hello everyone!
im here again(:
been blogging quite often these days, hopes someone on earth is reading it haha.

went for a catch up dinner with chien ting today!
she's going to orlando (usa) for attachment soon.
on 5th april and will only be back 6months later!
im gonna miss you, chien! come back soon okay(:
yiwen, vane, linyen and JUSTIN were there toooo.
there were supposed to be MORE ppl, but they ps-ed so yah.

dinner at one of the korean restaurant in novena!
er, i dontknow if its square or velocity heehee.
but i must say that their spicy chicken soup is SUPERB.
hang around at novena and we wrote a card to chien!
it was kind of a last minute thing cos mag supposed to be the one buying the gift but she cant make it at the very last minute =x

and who says mini gathering is boring!
i say its NOT(:
it can be fun tooooo.
had fun with the girls and the only guy yesterday!
went doughnut factory after that(:
pictures were taken but its not with me now!
will update soon with the pics.

oh and justin send us home yesterday night!
with his papa's mercs OHMYGOD HAHA.
justin's the man for the day!
imagine him sending 5 noisy girls home haha.

oh and from novena going back to chien's house that time,
jus turned the wrong way and we got to U-turn to KK hospital.
jus when we were U-turning, a bangala on the road kept looking at us.
and us being HIGH, or rather me only.
I WENT TO WINK AND WAVED AT HIM !!! HAHAHAHA.
super duper funny hahaha.

time spend with old friends were great!
waiting for you to come back, chien(:
so that we'll have more fun together! LOVES.

the reason why i love her so much! :)

2008-03-21T18:59:00.010+08:00

look at the pic below! SO FUNNNY.
yesterday night, yiqian was telling me how long is her hair and she suddenly send me the webcam application.
well was kinda shocked when i saw her hair on the webcam,
there she types: "emo kid."
super funny! jokingly she told me that she is "into" punk rock style LOL.
and there we were talking bout how a punk rock kid should dress.
she wasnt wearing that checked shirt initially.
in order to fufill the "punk rock style" image, she went to change into that shirt!
plus BLACK SKINNIES AS WELL HAHA. (she's actually wearing it before that)
and i asked her to pose a twist for me.
YIQIAN IS SO CUTEEEEEE! :D

best friends never fail to make you SMILE :)

they are closing, help!

2008-03-19T16:59:00.009+08:00

ohmygosh, i couldnt take it anymore.

im falling asleep!
im soooooo tired.
and right now, im in the office :S

slept at around 1am last night.
jus to check my results! gosh.
and well, my gpa improved :)
like finally after 3 semesters!
i know the gpa still kinda suck.
but it's better than nothing right? :D

the only spoiler thing is that C+ for IADP! 6 credits somemore.
but well, i deserved to get a C lah so yah er haha.

feel like locking this blog haha.
should i?

new love; peter petrelli :D

2008-03-17T21:46:00.010+08:00

i've watched 3 episodes of Heroes Season II already!
omg, peter petrelli is like so hot pleaseeee.
getting more and more handsome, more and more goodlooking :)
even better than in season I, woohooooo HAHA.

hmmm, work has been getting better for me?
i dontknow and couldnt conclude that haha.
but it is definitely better than the first week!
a new intern came today :)
eun kyung, a korean girl!!!!
OHMYGOD, SCREAM EVERONE HAHAHA!
but too bad, if she's a guy that would be even better LOL.
she's kinda sweet (:
very friendly too!
was in CJC and now waiting for uni posting and therefore is working at heartware.
this morning, her phone rang.
and the minute she picked up the phone she goes.... "yabu seyo?"
WAH HIGH! LOL :p

and now....... let me present you pictures of my new hottie~

omg isnt he HOT? so handsome :D

jus look at his body built! GOODNESS HAHAHA.

jus a random note that i am a 100% female.
becos i've got proof!
i realised i like to 口是心非。

i do not know how to handle it anymore.
somebody jus tell me what should i do!

i can sense that it's coming

2008-03-15T21:32:00.010+08:00

just want to run
Just want to hide away
Close my eyes to your gaze
Just want to leave
Don’t want to hear them say
"You’re no good at this"

When the world swirls with naysayers
Broken wings and torn pages
The road ahead
Swimming in my tears

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Losing myself
Gaining it back again
Forging strength from weakness
All that I am
All that I’m meant to be
Melting in your hand

Let the world swirl with naysayers
Pickled hearts and sour faces
What is real is what I cannot see

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Cut away
All within me
That won’t bear fruit
Cut away
All within me

Cut away
All within me
That won’t bear fruit
Cut away
All within me

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger
Scars make us stronger for life

scars (stronger for life) - corrinne may's song.

i like this song, cos it makes me feel emotionally strong.
but at the same time, i couldnt help but feeling sad.
it feels weird, like a very heartache and sour feeling within me...
been emotionally unstable since yesterday night.
i guessed my auntie's visiting me soon.

sometimes, things arent within your control.
it's tearing me into pieces and im afraid...... ):

pre-exams stress!

2008-02-16T21:10:00.016+08:00

and i should be mugging right now!

grrrrrr, im so stressed up.

my heart's beating THIS fast these days!

someone, help meeeee.

hmmm, maybe i should go to sleep more and dream about the questions that'll be coming out for the 3 papers! :D:D:D

OH MAN, FAT HOPE PLEASE ZZZZZZ.

shut up, mich and go study!

娃哈哈！吓死你们，让你们没办法读书！哈哈哈哈。

much happenings! :D

2008-02-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

hi there! hahaha.

jus visited caryn's blog and koped some pictures there (:

some of my happenings recently.

look at vane's face! SOOOO CUTE.

wasnt very sure what i was doing at that point of time LOL.

jus look at vane! she jus LOVE "kissing" me.

haha ponned lectures and went town for some girls' shopping.

seoul garden for dinner!

alright, jus look at vane's face and my stupid face!

opps, lijuan was supposed to be in the photo!

oh well, they jus "hated" me THAT much! HAHA.

clique.

the get along well friends :D

class photo! well, not everyone is inside but majority (:

the "ZHUANG" family haha! inside joke*

bugis trip!

went all the way to marina bay jus to have some place to sit.

spastic and constipated face of mine.

trying hard to fool around haah!

haha! RECENT JOKE, "wu di tie jin gang"! LOL.

not sleeping! was jus resting ha.

lunar chinese new year is arriving in less than an hour! :D
and so is vane's birthday.
happy 19th in advance! (:

bleeding love

2008-01-28T15:53:00.000+08:00

nice song! go listen (:

kinda emo though.

"But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open"

i had enough.

2008-01-06T20:47:00.000+08:00

#1
when i talk to you with a positive tone,
please do reply me with a positive tone too.
its not like i can only be the one facing others' sarcasm that pierce so deeply into the heart.

please give me some pride,
i am not a toy, puppet or even a clown that goes around amusing people.
i have got my own pride!
why do i always have to lower myself to the extend that,
even when i sense the sarcasm i still got to smile and bring it through?
i am stupid, i dont deny.
but it isnt a way to dampen someone's confidence like that!

#2
GIVING REMINDERS.
firstly, you are the one who asked me to keep reminding you so that you wouldnt break your promise.
now that i've been practically reminding you almost everyday,
you said i am a nuisance.
and actually treating my words like shit.
well done.
everyone in this world is great,
EXCEPT ME.

hell to ME yah!

crazy experience

2007-12-28T21:27:00.000+08:00

hey! been such a long time since i update.
sorry for being lazy! haha.

well after my 18years alive, i've finally been to a club for once!
hahaha i might sound alittle "sua ku" though.
my bro's back from australia for a very short 10days holidays,
and therefore we headed to the club supposely becos his friends are going,
plus yiqian so happened to ask me to zouk on that day!
its a wednesday that we went to zouk.
its free entrance for the four of us: me, novia, my bro and his gf becos we knew people there!
it was supposed to be free on wednesday for ladies but then it so happen that the next day is a public holiay,
and therefore all need to pay to go in.

well, reached zouk at round 9plus.
slacking around at future and playing some hand guessing games.
yiqian, geok and few of their friends were supposed to meet me inside the club,
but eventually they ps-ed us becos its full house and way too crowded and they headed to MOS.
all of my bro's friends ps-ed tooo and so it's jus left with the 4 of us!
but nevertheless, we still had fun :)

dont be shocked at the upcoming photo,
becos my bro thought that my friends will be coming.
AND THE FOUR OF US DRANK THEM ALL.

and so i drank and drank finish almost a jar of ribena volka plus around 5cups of apple shorts! haha insane isnt it?!
i didnt know i drank so much becos the ribena volka was jus too nice (:

and therefore, resulted in my seh-ness.
the whole story was really funny. i suddenly told my bro,
"eh kor kor, i cannot stand properly lehhhhh."
then he knew i was alittle drunk.
when the music started, we squeezed our way through the dance floor.
i couldnt stand straight!
kept slanting here and there that the three of them got to keep pulling me here and there.
it was around 1.30am when we left the club.
it was horrible, i couldnt hold my head inside the cab ! i mean i couldnt control it.
it jus kept slanting backwards and my sister got to hold it plus i felt so sleeeepy.
but my bro kept asking my sister to make me awake, becos once i fall asleep,
the minute i woke up i will vomit.
okay and so i said some funny stuffs which i wouldnt not elaborate here.
cos i am lazy =x heehee.

okay now, here is the most scary photo!
please do not be scared by it.

omg. isnt that SCARY!!!
like a ghost rightttt.
and my face looked sooooo pale.
jus like i was possessed by some evil spirit!
TOTALLY CRAZYYYYY.
that explains why my sister is holdig on to my head haha.

novia, jess and me :)

jess, leslie and me!

me and my sister (you see the GREAT difference! FAINTS*)

the lovey dovey :)

i am sorry.

2007-12-09T09:55:00.000+08:00

i am shit.
i lead my life aimlessly.
i am sorry for being so.
especially to vanessa.
it must have been a torture and burden for her,
to partner me with the the projects we have in hand now.

i am really really truly very sorry.
i dont know what else to say except "sorry".
i hope you do read this post,
though i know the chances of you reading is very very low.

I AM SORRY.

you dont have to.

2007-11-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

you dont have to pay any attention on me,
because i dont mean a thing.
you dont have to keep your promises to me,
because i dont mean a thing.
you dont have to listen to what i say,
because i dont mean a thing.
you dont have to think of what i feel,
because i dont mean a thing.
you dont have to even lay your eyes on me,
because i dont mean a thing.

YOU PEOPLE, DONT HAVE TO BECAUSE I DONT MEAN A THING!
ah well, it doesnt matter to anyone afterall.

shut up michelle,
because YOU DONT EVEN MEAN A THING TO ANYONE!

you are a loser,
a loser that will only go emo-ing at one corner by yourself.
a loser FOR LIFE.

i hate, MYSELF!

2007-11-05T19:33:00.000+08:00

i hate myself for putting on a happy face,

when im actually feeling the opposite.

i hate myself for not able to express myself,

when i really wanted to.

i hate myself for keeping mum about things,

when the fact that i dont feel good deep inside.

i hate myself for keeping quiet,

when actually im unhappy about certains things that people do or say.

i hate myself for being seriously S-T-U-P-I-D!

i am a coward.

i am a pretender.

I, JUST SIMPLY HATE MYSELF!

if only thoughts could be express in just simple abc.

bugis!

2007-11-02T22:10:00.000+08:00

hello! been awhile since i came here.
im really really very very lazy to update this blog heehee.
well, nothing special jus that school workload is getting heavier and heavier.
and i felt so like erm, useless bum?

things havent been going well for me.
i would say for my family...
all thanks to THAT selfish person.
okay, i dont wanna talk about it anymore.

went bugis shopping with mag and yiwen on the 27th october(:
each of us bought a black long cardigan! :D
and guess how much does it cost?? TEN BUCKS!
thats really cheap isnt it!
and we each bought a blouse too.

the usual! bbt(: and that explains my SIZE =/

mag and yiwen! :)

look carefully at this guy's jeans! wth. TWO COLOURSSSSS =x

yunnan part II

2007-10-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

YUNNAN TRIP'S PHOTOS PART II

look carefully! the fishes doesnt have any EYES.

it happened to be my dad's friend, matthew uncle's birthday!

ljiang's most famous 古城。nice place, there's loads of night bars/pubs too!

awesome performance!

housekeeper in lijiang! soooo "michelle's-type" right?! HAHA.

okay, perhaps he isnt as THAT good looking as i thought he was at that time. maybe i was blind that time =x shangari-la's tour guide. weird dressing huh, it's their traditions there.

beautiful fresh flowers' market!

黄果树瀑布 at guizhou.

yunnan part I

2007-10-15T17:56:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! im back from yunnan :D
i must say that it's a fruitful trip.
it isnt like those wulu wulu cheena impression you had on china.
though the toilets are still as sucky as ever =x
alrighty, i'll jus let the pictures do the talking.
will update another round when i get hold of the pictures from my dad's friend.

i got scared ! it was really high up thereeee.

life in china is soooo good huh! mahjong session.

beautiful isnt it?

sooooo cute right!

the best tour guide i ever known. kunming!

prettiest tour guide i ever seen! haha. guizhou!

boo! new blog :D

2007-10-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

okay im back!
im so excited with this new blog :D

okay and i'll be leaving my house to the airport in about 6hours' time.
dont miss me k!
will only reach singapore on 15th october midnight.
SCHOOL IS STARTING SOOON! grrrr hate it.
stress will be back soon ):
bahhhh. bye for now! ♥

testing testing.

2007-10-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

hello!
testing testing 1 2 3.
new blog (: